Monday

Once upon a time ...

Pixie
Once upon a time there was this girl who decided to start a blog.

The blog was an outlet for all the good, the bad and the ugly in her life.

The blog was a place to go to get shit off her chest.

The blog was to help her from driving her hubby bananas with her endless chatter.

The blog was a great idea.

As time went on, the blog became lower and lower on the to-tum pole of things to do.

Then the poor blog was forgotten about completely until today ...

Today that same girl realized, my blog is always there.

My blog will be there any time I want to use it.

My blog my change its name or location but it will always be there.

Whether I post 5 times a day or 5 times a year, the blog will always be there.

My blog is for me.

My blog is not a career.

My blog has no set future.

While I love the idea of others thinking I'm interesting or my posts are interesting,

My blog is for me.



Pixie

Wednesday

Almost a week

Pixie
Wow! It's been almost a week since I blogged.
I've been so unbelievably busy its redunkulous!
I even missed my own debut for "Fed Up Fridays"!
For those of you that are following me, I apologize. I'll try to do better. :)

In other news, the hubby said I should add a blog theme having to do with him, he's such a narcissist, lol. He said it should be something like "Shit my husband does/says".
He kinda has a point though, there is plenty of writing material in that, lol.

Ok folks, unfortunetly all I have time for today is to tell y'all that I don't have time, lol.

Until next time!

Pixie

Thursday

Starting tomorrow ... I think

Pixie
I'm thinking of making tomorrow "Fed Up Fridays"!

I thought that with all the bullcrap I hear about on a daily basis I should try to sum it all up in one weekly post.
From excuses to dumb ass comments.
It's amazing how much people I interact with on a regular basis don't filter what comes out of there mouth. Perhaps said people don't even have filters.
I'm not quite sure but I do know that I want to share some of it with the world.

I worked on a graphic for Fed Up Fridays earlier but I'm not sure how I feel about it.
Here it is:

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It's okay but not the best. I have a few other pics I'm going to play with but this will be the one for now. Anyway, look for my Fed Up Friday post tomorrow. I'm sure you'll enjoy it, if you don't, just fake it for me ok, thanks! ;)

Pixie

Tuesday

No amount of horn tooting will make you suck less!

Pixie
So last night the Hubby and I attended a 'meeting' in the auditorium of our local elementary school. I'm using the term meeting loosely because when all was said and done it wasn't what I thought it was. I full on expected to be around a bunch of other parents, a few teachers (from various schools in our area) and then the 'board' of this particular organization. I thought we would be discussing our horrendous budget crisis, our lousy test scores and ways to resolve these very important issues that are plaguing our area schools as well as our district. Nope. Well, I'll try to be a tad fair. Those things were 'touched' upon. But it seemed to me like nothing more than a clique trying to pat each other on the back for what I see as being a piss poor attempt at teaching our students.

The majority of the people in attendance were teachers from the local High School. A HS that has terrible testing scores. I'm talking less than 10% of the school is proficient in Math. That ridiculous and only one example of god awful test scores. The organizer of the group, god love him, is only trying to do good. I mean I see what he is "trying" to do but to me the way they're going about it is wrong. So during the meeting I kept my mouth shut and just listened to group of people as they took turns stroking each others egos and applauding the efforts of 3 students that came to the meeting. All the while I am waiting for them to get to the meat and potatoes of it all. Waiting, impatiently mind you, for them to dispense something that sounded remotely like a suggestion on how to make a change in our badly in need of s change system. *sigh* That moment never really came.

I walked away even more confused and disgusted with the way this whole situation is being handled. I did however let them know during a Q&A session that I have a child that just started High School and I would NEVER in a million years send her to their school. I followed that up with "No Offence". I'm not sure if they realized I was being snarky. Oh and god love my husband. When we were approached later by one of the VP's at the HS who wanted to know 'why' I wouldn't send our daughter there. My husband looked at him and said "Because its scary, I interned in the Drafting class for the last few years and I know first hand what goes on your campus. Which is really a shame because I myself went to that HS.".

On a related side note.
The Hubs has a new kind of punishment for our oldest kiddo.
"If you don't behave and keep your grades up, we'll pull you out of your pretty foo foo awesome rainbows and unicorns high school and put you in the neighborhood HS.
Mwaahhaaahhhaaa.



Pixie

Thursday

Stresserated!

Pixie
Yep, that's what I am today. Stresserated. Stressed and Frustrated. Which is actually making me a bit sad and depressed. Which in turn is not helping me get better or feel rested. It's really amazing how all those things tie together and make for one Stresserated Pixie! Today didn't start well and has continued to suck ass. What's really jacked is that I'm only about 4 hrs in. I could possibly have another 12 hrs of ass suckiness ahead of me. Sadly I'm still a Mom and Wife so instead of laying down and resting before work, I need to go start laundry and strip the kids beds. *sigh* That's all I have energy for right now.

Until later peeps!

Pixie

Tuesday

Blog Hop Numero Dos

Pixie
So this is my second blog hop that I have participated in. This one is brought to you by Shhhhh! Just between u&me. It's called Weird Me Wednesday!

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So I am suppose to post something weird about me. I just happen to think that everything about me is a wee bit weird so it's actually a little hard to think of one.
Ok, how about this...
I have to sniff everything. If I open the milk to pour on cereal I have to smell it. If I open the butter to put on toast I have to smell it. It's mainly food items and or condiments but I have actually smelled towels, brushes, sheets to name a few other things. They can be freshly washed or clean so I know I'm not checking for freshness, I think I just need to smell them, lol.

Ok so thats my weird thing, lol. Thanks for stopping by!

Sunday

I'm sick

Pixie
So this is Day 2 of being sick. Well, let me restate that. I've always been a little sick, mentally, lol, but today is day 2 of this nasty head cold. I don't use the word hate very often but I really HATE being sick. I can't think straight. I can't get things done. I had so many plans for this weekend. So much on my "To Do" list and I have barely touched it.
You really have to stop and appreciate things like being able to breathe through your nose. To appreciate being able to stand from a sitting position without feeling light headed. Being able to taste food. Being able to lay in bed at night without having a coughing fit. You know the kind that makes your chest hurt. I am really over this cold. I really would like for it to go away now.

Friday

And the Blog Award Goes To....

Pixie
I so hope I am doing this right. This is my very first ever award. I don't even know what I'm suppose to do. So here it goes.

Thank you, thank you, thank you Carrie @ http://livingahealthybeachlife.blogspot.com for giving me this blog award!

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The rules for winning this award are as follows:


1* Thank and link back to the person who gave you the award.

2* Share 7 things about yourself.

3* Pass the award along to 15 other bloggers who you recently discovered and think are fabulous.

4* Contact the bloggers you chose and let them know about the award.


Thank's again Carrie for the award! I really appreciate it!


7 Things About Me…

1. I want to write a book.
2. I have 2 tattoo's and plans for 4 more.
3. I met my husband at a night club in Tijuana Mexico.
4. I played the alto sax in school.
5. I once entered a singing contest with my Mother.
6. I have 11 piercings total.
7. I have been a foster parent.

There is no way I can pick 15 blogs because I am so new at this, but here are a few I can mention ...

http://www.bravegirlsclub.com/
http://www.thesitsgirls.com/sits-blog/
http://bevilsgirl.blogspot.com/
http://suziblu.typepad.com/a_lovely_dream/http://www.lifewithoutpink.com/
http://nirvanamamma.com/
http://corisbigmouth.com/
http://www.lifebyleah.com/

Thanks again!!!
:::blushing:::

Wednesday

Busy busy busy...

Pixie
I have been so busy that I haven't been able to post anything for a few days. Since hubby's been out of town it seems like I have run out of time, every day, to get things done. I have however spent some time reading some new blogs that I am now following, as well as learning about blogging itself. There are so many different kinds of blogs and bloggers out there in th Bloguverse.

I also bought Flawless Bananas dot com last night and am in the process of learning how all the nooks and crannies of Google Apps work. So while it HAS been super busy I guess it has been productive, at least in the learning department.

If you recently started following me, Welcome and Thank You for doing so. It's weird to know that people are reading the things that I am saying but that's what blogging is about I guess. I hope I don't bore any of you to tears with the things that I post but for now all I plan to write are the ramblings of my life and the weird crap that I think about, lol. well, until I find my direction, if I ever find one.

Sunday

It's so early...

Pixie
Ok maybe not that early but early for me. I've been up since 5am. It's Sunday. Sunday is suppose to be a sleep till 8 or 9 day. But I had to get up early to take hubby to the airport. He is headed for Savannah Georgia to teach a class on how to do shize the right way. I guess the boys at the Savannah office have been effin up their CAD stuff so the hubby's gotta go make them see the light. Its awesome the he is SO GOOD at what he does that he has to teach others how to do it but sucks because I miss him when he's gone.

On a side note... He was sweet enough to point out how much grey I have going on in my hair right now while we were standing outside the airport security check. I was thinking about growing all my color out but since he pointed the grey out I might just cave and go buy a box of color. The question is do I go towards my natural dirty blonde locks or do I stick with the dark reds/browns that I have been for the last year or so???

Saturday

Saturday...

Pixie
I love Saturdays. It's the day I pretend that I can relax. It's the day I pretend that I can put stuff off because I have Sunday to "do it all". Saturday is MY day of the week. I own it. No one else can have it. I just wanted to take a moment to give Saturday it's due. I love you Saturday!

Thursday

Blending...

Pixie
All my days are blending together. They are starting to all look the same. And the shitty thing is they all have the same theme. The *I'm uber tired and I don't have time to get anything done* theme. Its actually starting to piss me off. I did successfully sweep my kitchen and vacuum my living room yesterday. Which are things I usually did every other day. Now its like once a week. Thats really not acceptable to me. I know it's only been a week and a day since school/work started but dammit! I need things to be more manageable. This morning I need to go to the store, pay a water bill, do my shift at the school, get the kids and go to our shrink appt. But while I do all that I need to find the time to knock out at least 2 loads of laundry, dishes, help with homework and .... something else .... phuck, I can't remember what that other thing was... grr, I hate that. Ugh, I hope I remember what the hell it was. *sigh* off to the store...

Friday

What'a'week

Pixie
Well the first week of school has come to an end. It has been a busy one. All 3 of our girls seem to be adjusting well to there new class(s) and schedules. A is doing exceptionally well, but I'm not really too surprised by that. I had my first 3 days of work. The 1st day was way chaotic. Day 2, somewhat chaotic. Today, meh, chaotic but getting better. The signs I made for the other girls and the kids tables have been really helpful. Pretty soon the kids wont need them....they'll just know.
Spent some time doing PTA stuff and some time cleaning up the Parent Room this week too. I really want to do as much as I can to get as many parents as I can to be involved at school.

I also finished up my meds (yesterday) from that little pesky almost dying incident. I teased the teacher again today about it. LOL! I'm super tired but it's definitely the good kind. I like being busy. Having a purpose. Well that sounds bad. I've always been busy. I've always had a purpose. I mean being a full time SAHM is no walk in the park. But this is just a different kind of busy.
I really need to work at keeping a balance though. Making sure I can get all the things done that I NEED to get done as well as the things I WANT to get done. So the word I am going to concentrate on for next week is 'Balance'.

Oh and before I forget, I got this really cool journal at the mall this past weekend. Its perfect for working on the 'book'. I did what I like to call 'circle thinking' the night before last and wrote stuff in it. I'm not really sure which direction the story will take yet but I am feeling out several different ideas. I really don't want this to be forced. I want it to just happen, so I'm not putting pressure on myself or the story (or stories) that I know exist inside me.

Well, that's gonna do it for tonight. A wants me to go lay with her for a little while in her bed. Nighty nite!

Monday

Summer is officially over...

Pixie
Tomorrow my kids go back to school!!! S starts high school, M is in the 3rd grade and A is starting Kinder. I am so excited for them. Even though the little one is super nervous I KNOW she's gonna love it. I'm going to enjoy it as well. I'm going to have a couple hours a day where I actually have the house to myself....w00t! It's super weird but I'm excited to be able to mop the kitchen without kids possibly walking on it. To be able to clean the living room or kitchen w/out worrying about what room is being destroyed while I'm cleaning a different one. Its the little things that make me happy. I am going to miss having A around though. Shes been my little running dog for 5yrs. I am so used to having her by my side I'm sure it's going to be uber weird not having her w/ me all the time. How many times do you think I will be heading out to the store or something and feel like I have forgotten her??? It's definitely going to be weird for a while. I start my part time job on Wednesday but since its at the same school that M & A attend it probably won't even feel like work. I'm always there anyway, volunteering or doing PTA business. I am looking forward to putting a little more money in my pocket though, that's for sure. Guess I should head off to bed soon, big day tomorrow!! w00t!

Sunday

Pixie
Spent the day with the family. Hit a few stores like Kohls, Wal*Mart and Target. Bought some school clothes and backpacks. Had a great time just hangin out. Then we went to Hometown Buffet for dinner. We haven't eaten there in quite some time. I have to say it wasn't too bad. Now I'm just chillin out. Checking up on Facebook and Twitter.
I'm feeling better after my near death experience on Friday. Still have a few more days of meds I gotta take but I'm better than I was yesterday so I am positive that I will be even better tomorrow.

Saturday

So much, part deux...

Pixie
OK so in the last blog I gave a quick quick version of the crap that went down in the month of August. Now I'm gonna tell you about September. Keeping in mind of course that today is only September 4th, lol.
:::side note to self, blog more often so that you don't have to moosh it all in like this:::
Anyway...
Sept 1st...Fairly boring day. Did house stuff. Typical boring day.
Sept 2nd... Had oldest daughters HS orientation and got her class schedule. Went up to the district and got my employee ID badge. Went next door to OP, helped in a few classrooms, talked to a few teachers and made plans for the next day.
Sept 3rd...The day started out just fine. I had my baby girls kinder orientation. I had come home for an hour before heading back to OP to get the teachers luncheon underway. All that went fine....then at 12:45pm everything changed. I decided to have a cookie. I thought it was a White Chocolate/Macadamia Nut cookie...I was wrong. It ended up having cashews in it. Turns out I am deathly allergic to cashews. My tongue and throat started to swell up almost immediately and I ended up having to go to the hospital. I had to get an epinephrine shot, some steroids and something called pepcid for the nausea. I have some other meds that I am taking now too and will continue them for another 4 days. I am just so so lucky that I just so happened to break the cookie in half and share it with baby girl. If I hadn't...I'm not sure if I would even be around to blog about the incident.

So much...

Pixie
There is just so much to blog about that it's gonna take a couple just to break it all down. Kinda thankful that I don't have any followers yet, lol. They might unfollow after reading all this stuff, lol. Ok so here it goes:

The month of August...
Started out pretty normal. Had M's birthday celebration. We went to dinner and Daddy made her a cake. She got some presents and we just chilled as a family. Then later in the month I got impatient waiting to here about my part time job at OP so I ended up going up to the district to see what was going on. They of course couldn't help me with the situation because the 'person' that was suppose to take care of it didn't.....uuggghhhh, so frustrating. In the mean time while talking to the HR ppl I found out that I was qualified for another position. So me being me I took the opportunity to lock in another job while waiting for the first one. So as of now, I have 2 jobs with the school....yaay!!! Uhm so I think that covers the month of August, but since this is my blog I reserve the right to jump back in time and add more at a later time, lol. :)
Pixie
So I almost died yesterday cuz I ate a cookie!!! Seriously...it was scary. Will add more later.

Jamie (Pixie)

Wednesday

Hi...

Pixie
Ok so I havent blogged in forever! So much has happened, it will take me several blogs just to get it all out.
Uhm so lets see... The BAHD is all better. It was something as simple as needing a different power cord, Thank God! Summer vacay is almost over which means these children will soon be outta my hair, again, Thank God. Oh and I got a job w/ the school district as a Special Ed Sub as well as working at OP as a noon duty person....meh, it's better than nothing.
I know I have a lot more to say but I simply don't have the time right now. I will update again soon though.....promise!

Saturday

Pixie
Trying this one more time...

Jamie (Pixie)
Pixie
My first mobile post to my blog.

Jamie (Pixie)

Wednesday

Tick Tock

Pixie
That's the sound I hear most. It's the sound of time going by. There's never enough of it. There's never enough time to do anything. Always busy. Always running. Want to be able to finish something from time to time but am unable to.

Tick Tock!
Tick Tock!
Tick Tock!

Seriously, why oh why can't anything get done.

Friday

*BLEH*

Pixie
I am so flippin tired!!! I feel like I haven't slept in a week. I have been on the go for about 12 days straight.....no wait, make it 14. From home improvement projects to the kids extra curricular activities. My Mom and sisters were in town and there has been at least 4 doctors appointments. Every night I think to myself ok, I'm so going to bed early......doesn't happen. Every night I think ok, tomorrow I will have time to do such and such....doesn't happen. *yawn* I have an errand to run this evening. My middle daughter has a concert in the morning, we have to be there by 7:30am, I told my Mom I would go to the Estate sale tomorrow too.....I just want to sleep. I want to veg out on the couch. Chillax! Doesn't look like it's going to happen any time soon. Maybe Sunday??? Who knows.

On a side note my youngest cracked me up the other day. I was walking through the house carrying a load of laundry. She was playing at the kitchen table. She heard me approaching and yelled out "I know Kung Fu!!!". I stopped, stifled a giggle and said "So you wanted me to know that you know Kung Fu?" She turns around and looks at me and goes "whew, I thought you were a monster. I want HIM to know that I know Kung Fu and that I was going to kick him in the butt!" I just smiled and told her "Good to know" and went to start a load of laundry. She is just too funny!

Oh yea and did I mention that our large external hard drive crashed??? The last 10 years worth of pictures are just chillin inside what is the equivalent of a giant paper weight!!! Hopefully we can get that fixed this weekend and retrieve all those photos and files. Fingers Crossed!

Wednesday

!!!Whaaaa!!!

Pixie
I detest being a cry baby about stuff. But today I am just raw emotions. 2009 sucked donkey di**s! It really was an awful year. Unfortunately some of that nonsense and suckiness has spilled over into 2010. I knew it was going to happen. I mean there were things that were left undone so of course there is gonna be some spill-over. But I don't like it! I don't want it! I want to tell most of the ppl involved to Fu*k Off! Sadly I can not. Sadly I have to put on my frickin Polly Anna Susie Sunshine persona, pull up my big girl panties and face the music. Mentally I want to Ninja kick someone in the throat! Emotionally I want to curl up in my bed, cover my head with my covers and stay there for a week. But I can not. I have to keep on keepin on.
I want to scream. I might just. But it will scare the crap outta my 4yo and the dog so I won't. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!! There, a virtual scream is better than nothing.....right? Nah, not so much!

Friday

Being Sensitive

Pixie
I don't like it. Being so damn sensitive to other peoples feelings. If I don't agree or feel differently then why can't I just say so! I wish I could just not give a crap if I hurt someones feelings or pissed someone off. But it bothers me, deep down, it really bothers me. I mean I can fake it. Like if its a stranger or someone I don't know very well. I can be an insensitive bitch, I can project the attitude of not caring but inside I do. Its especially troubling for me when its someone I care about like my husband, my good friend, hell sometimes even my children. It makes me feel weak. I don't like feeling weak. I have been taken advantage of because of my sensitivity. I have let the wrong people too close and been hurt badly. And yet I keep doing it. Keep being sensitive to others. I hold my tongue, don't say what I really think or feel because of it. I know people get pissed, I know people get upset but knowing I am the cause just doesn't sit well with me. Is there a class I can take? Like a How To Be More Bitchy 101. If so, sign me up.

Thursday

Emotionally Conflicted

Pixie
My 4yo says the darnedest things. Shes smart and has a big vocabulary. Today she was laying on my bed saying "Haaaaappppppyyyy Bunny, Saaaaadddd Bunny" over and over. After a while I asked her what on earth she was talking about. She said she got it from some show and then said "The bunny is emotionally conflicted"! Seriously?? Shes FOUR! What four year old says 'emotionally conflicted' let alone KNOWS what it means. She is just too much. When I stated as much she simply patted my arm and said 'I know Momma, I know' and walked away.

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